cant believe it...the girl whom i hve been so call kinda good friends actually is a copycat..and that's another felicia ng...okay...i probably think the whole world is turning their backs upon me...well..coz i am listening to a sad song..might as well write a sad entry for me..the hey-i-am-feeling-angsty-don't-touch-me-i-bite kind of shitty entry..okay..the ending of the song is here..replay it again..done...now..for the angry subject for me always..since like forever....i don't really care if i am out or not..but i am feeling very stupid to trust and put in so much effort and at the cost of my studies as well..i just cant rest till i get back my rightful things...this year 2006 is a fun and for me..very stressful year...my you know who passed on...results hit rock bottom...and i got out of what was supposedly caused my results to hit the rocks...i have to bear with all the naggings and repirmanding sessions...i just feel it is not very nice....everytime i feel that i just blast music into my head..it calms me...like the whole world is another parellel universe to mine..that thing has made me shed tears..and i don't shed them like a water fountain unless people whom are dear to me pass on...this year..i cried an astounding 2 times for that thing...it just doesnt seem right..what teachers said was bullshit...what he has no right to kick me out...crappiest BULLSHIT...what happens in the end..sorry..we had no choice...bah!! humbug...finally..my music is back on..now i can watch my fingers fly across the keyboard..without thinking at all...i jut feel so out of place at times..for the first time it happen..i cried..because of something not worth to cry over...no one actually understands me..i have never opened the door to my world for anyone..just myself..in this dark world..those four walls collapsing onto me..and it will stay that way..this is the first time i actually let people to see part of me...i cried in front of them...i hated P2 the most..because of HIM...friends like crap...i just have to seal back the hole in one of my four walls without a door or window..no way in or out..please..don't help me to break that wall again..